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holidays r meant to be relaxed....well nt in my case...i guess....hahaz...yesterday thanx to diana and jane had to go for JL orientation twice...lolz..met them and went for the 1st one at 10am....saw alexis darren var and ben oso...and oso met some of the ex staff.....then aft tt met quek for lunch went mos..then went back somerset mrt to wait for the rest....and of crse we went a little late for the orientation...stella was kinda shocked seein me again....hahahaz...gotta say tis time for afternoon shift gt more prettier gals than last time sia....lolx...well finished ard 4 then i and quek went to suntec city to meet kyla and the other 6th batch.....their trainin seems more high class....aft goin for the traiinin..one thing was confirmed...SP has the least pretty gals....LOL...seriously lor...there gt ard 3 schs...SP, SMU, NP....SP had 5 tables..SMU had 3 tables and NP had 1......tt one NP table had more prettier gals than all the other 8 tables combined together sia...serious!!...even jo was tellin the same thing...hahaz...wasted i nt doin hotel sia.....their trainin was fun..saw jw and jojo there...had a chat....stayed ard a little more and then came back ard 6......came back and knocked out til 8.....then today had to go SP to help out in the uniform stuff...in the end woke up at 7...woke wl up.....and then realised tt i was quite sick....lolz....was havin a flu so decided to rest at hme.....so slept again woke up at ard 2 with disturbances in between from quek and kyla....hahahaz...slacked ard....went grany hse came back.....tml goin back sec sch...cant wait to meet all the old peeps...kinda miss them sia..hhahah...bt sadly think most of my JC frenz cant make it..all gt prelims...talkin abt sec sch reminds me abt my sec sch life...so relaxed...i kinda changed alot since then i gues...from my voice to looks to attitude...lolz....
last time i was a really happy-go-lucky person...with nthg to care abt except the usual scolding from teacher...hahahz...no stress...no events to organise...nt much probs...veri nerdy....hahaz..bt then comes poly life....everythin changes...its like life becomes different..we gotta be solely independent...frankly alot of ppl i met from sec sch says tt i've changed...even my teacher...dunno in which way they mean....hahaz..bt yeapz i gotta agree....sec sch days i cld ctrol my words....vulgarites nt so fluent...bt nw..haiz....vulgarites juz love to pop out of my mouth....hmmmm...life changes all the time....juz hope it all changes for the good.....problems have arrived and gone....its juz abt hw we can cope with them....in my case i've been tryin to cope with it as well as i can...bt then gt a feelin a breakdown is nearin me soon....haizzzzz....juz gotta carry on....

life is short....gota enjoy it to the fullest....
hope things change to the fullest....
some memories stay etched in the heart and these memories give the most pain....
juz gotta endure....&
ENDURE I WILL!!......