lookz like i gotta have problems everywk....nt everythin is goin well...haizzz...well wed did project and then went hme with quek.....gt job for diana oso at jl tis sep...yay can see her again aft sooooo long.....missed those days in sec sch when we juz cant stop crappin...well bth of us in similar shoes right nw...anw cant wait to meet my little sis again sia....lolz...thurs was nthg much....broky my promise to myself of nt ponin lesson at all tis wk...haizzz....feel so bad...at least i knoe i wont get warnin letter tis wk...then thurs whole nite was veri busy with my stupid gems presentation...aiyo..so much work....the ppt itself was 43MB sia thanks to all the screenshots from the movie...in the end all the hardwork was worth it....presentation went so smoothly...cfm can do well for gems tis time ard..lolz...like i give a damn...then supposed to meet the others...bt then finish too early so left hme with ben tan....talkin abt all the cya stuff on e way...heard alot abt hw thurs cyas r goin abt....frankly i'm quite happy tt i'm no more in the comm for cya.....came back then went to get some peace in a place tt i'm goin quite often....no need say further...lolz...
then came the most fucked up part...came back hme....realised smthg was nt right at granny's hse.....therfore walked all e way to her hse at toa payoh at 11pm juz to find out wats wrong....went there found out my uncle was creatin trouble....and i juz cld'nt take it...all i knoe next was i was shoutin at him realy loudly till he really gt stunned....no need to elaborate further....thank god my parents was'nt there.....cos i think i used some vulgarities oso...my granny dun understand english so no probs there...lolz...well..think tis the 1st time i shouted at my own family member....bt then again he really deserved it....
today was slack....whole day at hme....think its kinda bad stayin at hme all alone...all kinds of thoughts came into me...wat a difference a few mths make....haizz....anw gotta rush rwps nw...haven even started yet gotta hand in on wed...i'm so gonna be dead...

hmmm...sun followed irene to buy a long awaited lappy...and then she oso buy a mp3....someone rich sia..lolz..then aft tt went 'duty' at airport..nt really duty....juz went there and slacked outside transit for 4 hrs....aft tt came back with bro and irene.....then..here comes the joke...irene hu bought her lappy juz hrs ago....cld'nt even switch it on on tt nite itself....hahahahaz....funni sia...somemore she so noob....i and quek nearly died teachin her sia...in the end her drive gt screwed up...so mon quek and me went back to change the drive...well aft tt it was a breeze....her lappy is now workin....dunno abt her mp3 though...today sch was ok...played soccer as usual and came back knock out sia...then had a chat with mary...reaslised tt i'm gonna miss the airport quite alot..anw i can still go down to arrivals to visit them...hahaz...anw still gt 2 reports to hand up tml itself....tonite can 4get abt slp...haizzz...be back next time....

hmmmm....last few days were bad....nthg went good for me...tis wk has been so screwed for me...1st get sacked then get warning letter from sch....haizzz...anw today was much better....woke up in the mornin to play soccer with my tuition mates...i really vented my anger from the past few days on the ball til the ball was nthg short of pathetic and i whacked a fren'z 'balls'...sorry dude....felt much much better aft the game...hahaz...then came back ard 2+...then slp all the way....yesterday whole day was out til 11pm....doin one of my rare appearances in the temple...lolz...hmmmm...yesterday heard from nisha tt the fri cyas gt scolded by tt bloody vp juz be4 duty...its like they r being threatened to be fired...wat a screwed up life....juz becos of the assurance of the 6th batch...the current batches are being treated like shit...its like cya is nw goin on a firing spree sia lead by vicky....lolz..anw last few days have been thinkin very deeply...the thing abt me is tt when i'm with others i dun feel sad at all....always the cheerful type...bt then when i'm alone or at hme..i juz cant stop brooding abt the past or think abt all tt has happened...although i try nt to...all the past memories juz wont budge away from my mind...haizzz...juz gotta pick myself up and carry on with life...nthg can change nw....juz hope its all for the better.....

~cheers...

well....there goes everything...i'm outta cya...if i heard tis abt 2 mths ago i'd been happy bt nt now....haizzzzz...dunno wat to do sia...i still have tt feeling for cya bt i cant go 4 it....feel like crying bt i cant...juz cant help recollecting all the past memories...from my 1st duty to the 5th batch 1 day trainin to now....and then i'm out of it...i can say tt i've reali worked alot for cya bt then nw all have gone to waste....few days ago i was thinkin abt the camp bt nw..think its gonna be scrapped...well...tts life...juz gotta go on...all thanks to a stupid video all is gone....wateva la...for nw i gotta pull myself up and be back to the same old nesh...well btw....thankz guys for all the support u all have given me....reali appreciate it..

reali in a fix..

hmmmmmm........i frankly have no idea wat to do....setbacks r comin in one aft another...all i can say i'm juz feelin nt myself rite nw....there was a time when i wanted to quit cya bt i did'nt and i dun regret bt nw tt i'm kinda enjoyin it....i'm like asked to quit...OMFG....Y MUS TIS HAPPEN TO ME???.....all thanks to a stupid video....WTF SIA.....i'm no more in comm and i dun reali care abt tt.....i dunno whether i'm still in cya...and i'm no more in imf...haizz...all e while i was lookin forward to it...and nw in juz a day all is gone...haizzz...oh god...yesterday was alrite....briefin was screwed up accordin to bran..i personally think it was ok...then today i get a bombshell....haizzz...i juz cant take it anymore la..and tt vicky can still say eric say u screwed up the carnival and blabla....omg y cant she jux believe me...then she goes on abt my award...i dun mind them strippin me of it...cos i myself know i dun deserve it..haizzz...well i'm nt the onli one...sc is also out..bt think he still in imf...and vicky can still tell me tt the next time ppl call me to have fun, i muz say i've changed.....haizzzz.....
i dun think i'm able to take it anymore....and the camp is comin soon too....haiz...cant wait for sep...need to be outta tis country 4 some time.....

carnival

hmm...juz woke up sia....came back from nyaa carnival at ard 6...last few days nt enuff slp sia...feel so much better nw...last nite reached hme ard 1am aft helpin to make jelly at jo's hse...slept ard 4+..well the carnival.....hmmmm...dunno leh...frankly i think it went well bt then...haizzzzz.....
well was the 1st one to leave bt last one to reach cos had to meet ducky 1st at pp to collect the bee hooon from him sia...his mum so nice sia...gave us the bee hoon for free sia...then after struggled with tt to go back to jo's hse...then helped them out with the stuff...then some of them took a cab to the old folks place from jo's hse....while me and liteng went to sp to get the board from zr....supposed to get from him at pp bt he overslpt..so had to go all e way to dover then came back to redhill....reached the hme ard 10 onli sia...and due to some last min stuff,....many were unsure abt wat to do....so rushed to set up everythin by 10.30 and then started the carnival....ended ard 11.30...be4 schedule though...everythin went fine...then came the kick in the ass....
the stupid Radin Mas CC youth grp ppl....were critical of our performance...expecialy the f**kin eric...haizzz....started to criticise, critisise and critisise even more....well the debrief nearly turned into a gang fight....well since i was in charge i was targeted....WTF SIA!!!!!!....all of us put so much effort in this...most of us nvr even slp for days....and then they juz criticise us like tt sia...knnbccb...haizz....i did'nt reali talk much bt i was reali boilin sia...was juz afraid that when i start talkin my vocab of vulgarities start takin over sia....thank god nthg like tt happened....anw aft tt we left grumblin and went to watch pirates of carribean....quite nice bt oso quite saddistic....then left them and came back and had a nice long nap....hahahaz....

hmm back aft 4 days....the last few days have been so tiring...preparing like nuts for the carnival....sun had duty...was fun with quek ard...went to take pics then tts abt all lor...goin hme time...in the bus it realy was so fun with irene wl and quek...hahahaz...suanin each other like nuts...then mon went late to sch..then had the carnival meeting...tues had test....which was quite easy...today oso had test...nt bad la...hopefully can do well...aft tt followed eugene to sim lim to check out the com parts prices..then we went to concourse..look ard a bit and then we went to the old folks hme in redhill...looked ard the place so guesses the format...and then went to meet jo...then went to IMM daiso to get all the gifts for the ppl....wah then go back to concourse...lolz..and then went to jo's hme to put all the stuff there...haiz..then went to chinatown....lolz...and then at last reached hme....wah managed to get all the gifts xcept for some strawhats....still need somemore sia...anw guess wat...gt another warnin letter...however when i reached hme...my parents did'nt reali scold sia...veri miraculous...either they dun care or they give up liao....lucky sia..thought i gotta quit cya again...lolz...

hmm..nvr update for ard 5 days...well its has been fun so far...tues went for comunity service at clementi with jo....then wed has my inter class match which we lost unluckily by 4-3...whole wk has been filled with projects...FOF to ACC to RWPS to gems...haizzzz....won money on bth semifinal matches....shiok sia...hahaz...nw my whole class is beginnin to ask me tips..even teachers!!..well hope tonite oso i win and of crse the final....broke my tradition of nt betttin in the cup final..lolz..thurs was a breather...and fri was shiok...no sch at all..becos of the CYA graduation ceremony....some of us went as early as 9 to the airport to rehearse for the ceremony....rehearsin all the way till ard 2...was veri fun...managed to at last get my indian accent a little...hahaz...well the skit was funny..the dance was godd and the singin part was touchin...wat made it so fun was tt i met all my fri clicks again....reali missed them alot sia...it was juz so fun seein everyone again...most probably for the last time..and oso the TP cyas...nt all of them will be continuin as snr...will all the cyas sia....haizzzz..well then aft tt did a 'last min' replacemen for ben hu was reali tired....in the end onli started duty ard 9 sia..hahaz...juz when i was goin to fax my replacemen form...mulli and malligah called me to help them out with some paper work..so i helped them out lor...doin on e stack aft another...hahaz...mainly i was juz stamping the papers and then punchin holes....so by the time all finished it was ard 9...then tool pass and then went duty...supposed to do sky train thingy bt since i went late..i did'nt go there...so in the end i was onli in transit...hahaz...well still gt match later muz watch sia...hahaz...cant wait...oh ya and oso congrats to zirong 4 winnin the outstandin cya award....he realli deserved it unlike the other one...lolz...

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haahz....yea...yippy..lolz...won 50 bucks on bettin yestderday...shiok sia..bet on france match....if onli 1 bet $10 i wld have won 100...bt then again at least i won...pity irene though hu lost 30...anw last nite had duty...which proved to be quite eventful expecialy towards the end...tt was my 1st 'official' duty as snr...was ok...onli audited 2 ppl as t1 onli 1 cya came...lolz...mostly was at ctrl cter chattin with davinder..hahaz...then went to break with jo,quek and chun...since i won money was forced to treat the others...so aft tt was ard 9+ sia..so went audit and then bought my earphones for my mp3....then left duty..bt then juz when i about to hand in my pass to police pass...i realised my pass was missing...shit!...went back to room..was'nt there..then thinkin tt mr ducky was up to his pranks again...went back down...and saw tt onli jo was there...tts when i reali began to panic sia...shit...went up again...told siti..hu was like 'nesh nt again'....hahaz..then went down again thinkin there goes 30 bucks...and then the police juz showed me my pass sia...damn lucky sia...woah...and quek was bullshitin abt the police being his uncle's fren and ther were in it together....LOL..hahaz..then came back with jo...today nvr go sch sia...was quite sick..actuali did nt wan go doc...bt then no choice if no LOA..will get warnin letter 4 1 bloody lesson..so in the end wasted 17 on an stupid mc sia...haizzzzz...juz finished my project..at last...tml muz help ben do his too sia...till next time..
~cheers..

sianzzzz.....

haaahz...today mornin went for some stupid rehearsal for the performance on grad nite...so sianz la...havin fever in the mornin yet still go...in the end irene,wl,weihan nvr come sia...anw the onli shiok part was the sakae treat by aneeta..she was in a reali high mood rite nw cos tml her 1 yr anniversary with her bf sia....hahahaz...left there ard 3+ went tampines met irene and the others...collected money and went to bet again....yesterday haiz...lozt $5 bt then nt as bad as irene hu lost $20+ sia...hahaz...today hopefully can win at least 1 sia...then can at least get some stuff for myself...next wk gt 3 assignments to hand in sia...haizz..last few days was'nt realli gd...gt the prob from vicky...somehw she found out abt the video in youtube...and thus makin a big commotion out of it..somehw i feel tt we have been backstabbed by someone in cya...gt a feelin hu it is...bt then again...dun reali wanna jump to conclusion....at least for nw noone in caas knoes abt tis video thingy xcept for aneeta....hu dun find much problems abt it..lolz...well tml gt smthg on in the mornin and then duty...3 days continuous trips to airport sia...hopefully later gt enuff energy to watch bth matches...though i veri much doubt so....LOL...

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